I really haven't been feeling like posting lately or replying to emails (again). Hello inbox which has been hovering around 35 unopened emails for the past two weeks. Sheesh. One of these days I'm going to get over this winter feeling (probably in the spring).

This winter sucks! Skiing would have been enough to get me motivated, but that hasn't happened. These short days are pissing me off. So is the rain and the perpetual fall conditions. Just get freaking cold dammit! I want to seek shelter from it. Be near fire, or heat... those are the things that make the cold worth it. You freeze your ass off all winter, but there's something about warming up that makes it all worth it.

I'm always looking forward to the spring. It's mating season! Everyone just comes alive, and I can't wait. The spring wouldn't be so good if we didn't have a winter. Like how there would be no good without evil. No light without dark (or the other way around... heh).

I was contemplating deleting this blog. I'm not the only one going through it. I was very upset to see that Tanya did it earlier this month. She's the closest to a real-life person I've almost met in real life. Haha. There are a couple more blogs lately where people have been going through the same struggle.

Found an old article on why people blog. I think it still applies... I dunno, I don't feel like reading it now. Haha. I'm such a loser. Well I don't even know why I do this. It's half to keep in contact with friends, but not really, since most don't visit (no, I'm not talking about you, Kim and Amandy). I'm not really into the whole blogging scene (I'm not opposed to it). I guess it's just to write about stuff I'm excited about, thinking that I have an audience. Is that ego gratification?

It's hard to post anything when there's not much that I'm excited about. I haven't been able to do cycle or run because of the back and knee pain (but I'm going to keep trying). I haven't been doing much other than work. Ughness. Fucking shitty winter.

I'm going to get over it... maybe I just have to force myself a little bit at first.

Today when I was stuck at work... wait a sec... this is what I was going. The more people who read this the more I have to watch what I say. This is the problem with blogging for me. I'm not like some people whose mothers are looking at pics of their daughter's tits. I have some shit that I keep to myself. (Raymi's mom is a milf all the way, I like her much more than her daughter)

Anyway, my point is that if my customer was reading this post, he might get offended that I said I was "stuck at work." So you either get a candid anonymous blog, or a politically inoffensive one. There's no happy medium. One day I might have to worry about the world reading this shit, in which case don't be surprised if I hit the delete button or the content is completely changed.

It happens. For now enjoy my somewhere in between candid and political blog... this is how I'd talk with friends. Not work geo, not family geo, not dating geo. Life is sweet.